Unexpected and Unintended
And it was as sudden as the rain that dripped onto the plane of Flight 3873. That unexpected, unintended feeling of missing you. It's been a very long time since I felt your absence. And I laugh because my mind went straight to you as I fly over the DC skyline. I didn't realize just how much I missed you until I looked across the airplane window and out onto the bridge that divides Virginia and our Capital. Remember all the plans we made? Remember the travels that we dreamt of?
I miss our deep talks. I miss the random calls. I miss the texts of taking spontaneous walks. I miss your generosity. I miss how you constantly looked out for me. Even when I was barely aware of it. I miss the pep talks. I miss the optimism. I miss having someone I cared so much about but whom I could never read or comprehend. I mis the caring gestures that I constantly dismissed as your providing common courtesy.
The clouds really are puffy and white. And the sun definitely lights up this land of the free, and home of the brave. Isn't it amazing how everything has its own system? Everything somehow works out. Everything has a reason.
I'm still trying to figure out the reason we met. Deep down, I know. Deep down, you ignited a flame inside of me. You sparked the motivation to live my life with intention. To do better and be better. Not because it's what people expect of any body. But because you really did see it in me. You challenged me in ways I never thought anyone ever could. You left an impression. You drove me towards a good path.
Things like this happen once in a while. I'll go about my life and my daily activities and something captures my attention to you. So I wonder. When exactly is the next time that you'll appear back in my mind? What exactly will be the trigger next time? How long exactly will I ride through the clouds of life until I'm presented with this sudden surprise? How long exactly until I no longer have this shocking feeling?